You’ll probably laugh at me, but The Sims 3 made me cry last night. I’m sure it had something to do with my female hormone fluctuations, but regardless, it was rather upsetting to see my “sim me” age well before her time. She had made it to the end of her athletic career, but was four skill points short of her lifetime goal (Golden Tongue, Golden Fingers: 8/10 guitar and 8/10 charisma). Granted, she can change her lifetime wish and quite possibly fulfill it, but it seems too depressing. Who wants to watch a rock star granny?
I took a video of her getting engaged (although she didn’t get married or have kids) and of her final “birthday.” Since she wasn’t looking forward to aging, I opted to not throw her a party. Instead, she was playing guitar in the park for tips when she went from pretty to muumuu.
It made me reflect on my life and wonder how many things I want to do but will ultimately never accomplish. I’m going to be 27 soon, and at the rate I’m going, I don’t see my life as anything special. There are things in my life that I enjoy that I have put on hold. For one, I’d really love to be in a band again, but I feel like I don’t have time. I’ve always wanted to have an MBA, but I don’t like the expensive and difficult process of going back to school. I thought I’d be married by now, since a lot of my friends are married and/or pregnant, but I don’t feel ready for that. How old will I be before I have kids, if I even get to have kids? I feel like my time is slipping by and I’m not doing enough with it.
While that all is depressing, I do have to give myself credit for one thing. Despite feeling like there was no hope, I did weigh in only 1 pound higher than my initial goal weight this morning. Since December, I’ve lost over 20 pounds. The changes I’ve made in my life feel more permanent than anything else. I enjoy working out (to a certain extent, at least) with my workout videos and rollerblading. I get a sense of accomplishment from tracking my calories, and I don’t feel like I have to eat as much as I once did. It hasn’t been an easy road by any means, but I did set out for it and do it. I don’t have any plans to discontinue my current activities or habits, so who knows. Maybe I’ll get into even better shape than I was in high school.
On the more good news front, I may finally be able to pick up my Eclipse today after work. The mechanic has had it for a full month now. Granted, he’s fixing a massive list of problems. Since I got cold feet on buying a new Nissan Altima Coupe (I didn’t want to say goodbye to my current car), I got all of the problems I could think of fixed.
- Engine mounts
the initial reason for bringing it in - Water pump leak
caused by the engine mounts wearing down - Fuel door pop
would release but not pop the door open so I had to wedge something in the release and go around to pry open the door - Driver’s side windshield fluid sprayer
one of the two nozzles sprayed directly onto the hood - Air conditioning
compressor needed replacing - Power locks relay x2
power locks would not unlock the door but would turn on/off the alarm; the first time he replaced it, it failed within a few days; mechanic thinks because it was getting wet, so he’s moving it - Moonroof seal
my car would pee on me when it rained because the seal had been distorted - Driver’s side door handle
mechanic broke it off
Needless to say, it won’t be cheap, but with a little luck, my car will run almost like new for quite a while after this.
Feeling: So very, very old
Listening to: Aerosmith – Cryin’